hello blogger my old friend...
change is good, change is what happens when we least expect it
so does life
it happens, keeps on moving, flowing
never ending song of happiness or quest for one
I have not rambled on for a log time, at least not here

I worry about steps I'm about to take they involve more than two people
me myself and I is about to be him, two kids and me
plus and assorted list of ex's
*shrug*
big step for all of us
d..n!!!
it's ok to be scared right? I mean nothing worth having is easy at least not in my life

those cute kids sat in my living room last nite all excited
" can we hook up both the X boxes to the big screen Dad..." asked M :)
I keep on trying not to think scared, shoot it's like giving up hard earned independence all over again and I wonder how much I'll bend, will I still have space of my own? Will they still like me after I've been there for more than a few hrs?

if you have not figured it out till now , I'm about to move in with my man *grin* and his two kiddos *deep breath deep breath* moving day is in a few weeks. I don't have doubts that we'll make it work, still doesn't stop my mind from running a marathon.

A grain of salt

last week a few of my co-workers joined the growing group of layed off workers...
I 'm ashamed of my relief that it was them and not me. Truth is the whirlwind of bad economy is no where close to being done.

In all of this i found myself thinking about the deep breaths I've learned to take through this life of mine. I had to remind myself of things I've learned what now feels like a lifetime ago:
I'm alive, I'm whole, my family and those important to me are as well.

Mom said she would have given a fortune for knowing that her kids are alive, not slaughtered... kinda puts things in perspective. Life will go on, humans are capable of surviving some awful things that get thrown their way.
I exhaled on Friday, I lived through the first shake down. I wonder how many more is there to come?

Today I found out my best friend from college lost his job last week as well, I hope we don't turn into alcoholics as we're getting through the tough times. I hope those who have lost their jobs have at least somebody to give them a hug. There is no better comfort than knowing that you're not alone in facing all of this turmoil.

God Bless.

P.S. I surprise myself all the time...